Distractible

Insomnia is really starting to get old. I suppose it’s not that I am not sleeping, it is that the sleep I am getting is not restful, I am not rejuvenated from a normal nights sleep. So I end up over indulging in sleep on the weekends which messes with my sleep schedule during the week. Maybe I am not built for American scheduling, maybe I need a mid day siesta or a nap after work and then a nap at night with uptime in the wee hours. I feel like my sleep pattern is best when its 10 hours of “sleep” followed by 20 hours awake. So that’s super sustainable for about a day.

What does that have to do with being distracted?

Well nothing and everything I suppose. Yesterday I was coming off of a very long sleep, though still not very much deep sleep. I felt great, awake, alert, creative even. That’s a rough one, feeling creative is hard to come by lately. But yesterday I was exercising, out for a walk and had all sorts of great ideas and plans. Started working on those with high hopes. Today the exhaustion of a restless night makes those plans all seem unpalatable. When i try and work on something I know to be a creative outlet, to draw, to sketch, thumbnail, script, any of it, my eyes roll back in my head and I’m yawning immediately. So instead I am watching videos, playing video games, disassociating.

Man what a whiner.

I’m fine, I will fix the sleep thing, I will figure it out. What choice do I have really?

But yeah, being distracted and exhausted makes things difficult when what I want is to be creative and productive.

Here is a Leonardo sketch as a consolation prize over actual content lol